Can you say PANIC ATTACK?!
What is it about the 2 to 3am hour that makes the demons come out?
It’s like that bit on Fantasia when all the graves open and the dead start clawing their way into my brains or something.
It doesn’t happen all the time, but it happened last night.
And I was a freakin’ MESS!
I can’t figure it out.
Maybe I’m just being hard on myself…
“Why am I still in so much debt?"
“Why haven’t I finished launching my podcast yet?
"What can I possibly have to say that people will find helpful or interesting?"
Maybe I’m in still second-guessing everything I do...
“Why on earth did I ever think I could make the transition from music professor to freelance copywriter?"
“How can I possibly be living in Utah?"
“Where do all these children keep coming from and how in the crap am I supposed to provide for their lives and teach them how to be good humans when I don’t have it figured out?"
Or maybe I’m freaked out that I can't perform to the high standard I expect of myself, even though things really are going super well for me right now…
“Who am I to get on Ray Edwards’s stage next week in Tennessee and give a 45-minute speech to a roomful of entrepreneurs?"
“How could I ever write copy as great as Gary Bencivenga or Gary Halbert, the kind of copy that melts the phones and floods bank accounts with millions upon millions?"
Ok, I can’t be the only one who goes through this kind of craziness in the middle of the night.
Does this happen to you?
The one that baffles me the most is worrying about my talk next week at Ray Edwards’s event.
I mean, I get to talk about Beethoven for 45 minutes. That’s like, my JAM! Never once have I ever felt nervous or worried about talking about Beethoven or music in general? NEVER!
Luckily, I finally got back to sleep at around 3:30 and slept until 6:30.
And after showering and getting ready for the day, I sat down at my desk to write this email after doing a little morning scripture time and prayer, and got a ping on my phone about a Gary Vaynerchuk video.
Now, prayer and scripture time don’t usually go hand in hand with Gary V… even though he’s brilliant.
But today, this was what I needed to hear.
The whole 5 minutes is great. But the last 30-60 seconds is where it really hit me. It’s exactly what I needed to hear.
If your demons are getting you down, maybe it’s what you need to hear today too.
Have a listen.
Have a great day!
P.S. If your demons are getting you down, I’m curious… how do you cope?
My go-to for the longest time has been eating my feelings. Hence my lovable and eminently huggable Teddy Bear girth.
But now I’m off of sweets entirely (it’ll be 18 months on August 1st).
And I’m working super hard to drop all the dangerous carbs my doctor keeps telling me are gonna push me to diabetes.
Plus, I don’t drink alcohol or do drugs.
I feel like I need something to do or consume or whatever when the demons DO hit.
Maybe yoga? Not sure I can bend like that…
Anyway, I’d love to hear how you calm your nerves. I could use some tips.
Thanks in advance!